FLATTERING
I am in the mood to be playful today. I had a lovely friday and it is reflecting on my mood. Funny this mood thing.
I was invited to attend E.'s, Z.'s diving buddy, surprise birthday party this morning. Since wednesday I was debating with myself whether to go or not. I felt a little awkward going there. Not because of anything other than the women/girls are a little weird to my taste. They are absolutely fine with themselves, but they are just not my style. At the same time, I wanted to go because I love the topic discussed there and the fun debates. They are lots of fun to be around. So I was between two desires.
Anyways, I asked my replica friend, Mae to help me with this matter. She was cool. She suggested that I send a message to Z. and tell him that I feel awkward coming, and wait for his reply. I did. I said to myself, if he encourages me to go, I will go. If not, then this is what I wanted and I can relax home. But I guess I was mistaken.
Z. simply replied back, 'Ok. I will let you pass on this one.' My reaction to myself was, 'what the ..... I expected some persistence, not OK! What is ok? I was pissed. Really. Typical me. I could have just relaxed with the answer, especially that it is was what I wanted from the start, but no. Very silly, Haal.
I decided to be playful. So I sent him a message, 'how flattering?' and waited for the answer. Cute Z., he called immediately exclaiming what does my message mean. I couldn't help but laugh and tell him that 'oh sweetie, because you are so understanding. I was thanking you.' He immediately knew I was teasing, and that I didn't like his reply. 'Women. Typical women. If you want to come, why not just say it.'
I think he is right. Partially right. I didn't want to go because I am so dead tired from last night, yet, had he talked me into going I would have done it for his sake. Could have just simply said so, but I have to feed my ego a little. Ended up starving it instead! But it was fun.
I actually don't like to go with Z. to every single outing. I prefer everyone has a free time by himself to be his own. Being with me all the time doesn't make me feel any better, and it is the same with him. I like this freedom, yet connected feeling. But I also have to feel that my presence is important. Normal to me at least!
I was invited to attend E.'s, Z.'s diving buddy, surprise birthday party this morning. Since wednesday I was debating with myself whether to go or not. I felt a little awkward going there. Not because of anything other than the women/girls are a little weird to my taste. They are absolutely fine with themselves, but they are just not my style. At the same time, I wanted to go because I love the topic discussed there and the fun debates. They are lots of fun to be around. So I was between two desires.
Anyways, I asked my replica friend, Mae to help me with this matter. She was cool. She suggested that I send a message to Z. and tell him that I feel awkward coming, and wait for his reply. I did. I said to myself, if he encourages me to go, I will go. If not, then this is what I wanted and I can relax home. But I guess I was mistaken.
Z. simply replied back, 'Ok. I will let you pass on this one.' My reaction to myself was, 'what the ..... I expected some persistence, not OK! What is ok? I was pissed. Really. Typical me. I could have just relaxed with the answer, especially that it is was what I wanted from the start, but no. Very silly, Haal.
I decided to be playful. So I sent him a message, 'how flattering?' and waited for the answer. Cute Z., he called immediately exclaiming what does my message mean. I couldn't help but laugh and tell him that 'oh sweetie, because you are so understanding. I was thanking you.' He immediately knew I was teasing, and that I didn't like his reply. 'Women. Typical women. If you want to come, why not just say it.'
I think he is right. Partially right. I didn't want to go because I am so dead tired from last night, yet, had he talked me into going I would have done it for his sake. Could have just simply said so, but I have to feed my ego a little. Ended up starving it instead! But it was fun.
I actually don't like to go with Z. to every single outing. I prefer everyone has a free time by himself to be his own. Being with me all the time doesn't make me feel any better, and it is the same with him. I like this freedom, yet connected feeling. But I also have to feel that my presence is important. Normal to me at least!
Comments
Well, the whole scene was teasing, playing thing that started because I was pissed of the neutral answer. you know, one always like to feel important and his absence affecting everyone.
So, I like this replica concept. Somethng like imaginary friend.
But seriously, I too think she is cool. Decent in her replies.
Thanks!
I hate this imaginary friend concept. You two are too spiritual.
I am just exagerating. I find Mae really straight-forwad, decent and serious, of course from the tiny bit we communicated. I am just enjoying that someone says we are connected as a character. That's it. Imaginary friend is just a joke! Don't worry.
Btw, she does give good advice. Perceptive and ALSO playful. not easy!
Enjoy your friend