7 May 2005


I am in the mood to be playful today. I had a lovely friday and it is reflecting on my mood. Funny this mood thing.

I was invited to attend E.'s, Z.'s diving buddy, surprise birthday party this morning. Since wednesday I was debating with myself whether to go or not. I felt a little awkward going there. Not because of anything other than the women/girls are a little weird to my taste. They are absolutely fine with themselves, but they are just not my style. At the same time, I wanted to go because I love the topic discussed there and the fun debates. They are lots of fun to be around. So I was between two desires.

Anyways, I asked my replica friend, Mae to help me with this matter. She was cool. She suggested that I send a message to Z. and tell him that I feel awkward coming, and wait for his reply. I did. I said to myself, if he encourages me to go, I will go. If not, then this is what I wanted and I can relax home. But I guess I was mistaken.

Z. simply replied back, 'Ok. I will let you pass on this one.' My reaction to myself was, 'what the ..... I expected some persistence, not OK! What is ok? I was pissed. Really. Typical me. I could have just relaxed with the answer, especially that it is was what I wanted from the start, but no. Very silly, Haal.

I decided to be playful. So I sent him a message, 'how flattering?' and waited for the answer. Cute Z., he called immediately exclaiming what does my message mean. I couldn't help but laugh and tell him that 'oh sweetie, because you are so understanding. I was thanking you.' He immediately knew I was teasing, and that I didn't like his reply. 'Women. Typical women. If you want to come, why not just say it.'

I think he is right. Partially right. I didn't want to go because I am so dead tired from last night, yet, had he talked me into going I would have done it for his sake. Could have just simply said so, but I have to feed my ego a little. Ended up starving it instead! But it was fun.

I actually don't like to go with Z. to every single outing. I prefer everyone has a free time by himself to be his own. Being with me all the time doesn't make me feel any better, and it is the same with him. I like this freedom, yet connected feeling. But I also have to feel that my presence is important. Normal to me at least!


Blogger jashanmal said...

HAAL pardon my intrusion as I have felt the urgency to give my 2 CENTS on this :)

You ought to pop some prozacs first! and then start loosening up a little, be laid back and mingle with the masses, then you will gradualy ditch them prozacs and find the world revolving around once more !!!!!!!!!!!


5/07/2005 04:16:00 pm  
Blogger haal said...

Cute! Thanks, Jasha! I imagine myself saying the nasty-ist things ever after taking these prozacs! I will be so relaxed and can't bite my tongue. Oh Gush, you want me to get a divorce or what :)

Well, the whole scene was teasing, playing thing that started because I was pissed of the neutral answer. you know, one always like to feel important and his absence affecting everyone.

5/07/2005 04:47:00 pm  
Blogger Mohamed said...

'Typical women' indeed. Had he persisted too much, you would've given him a harder time.

5/07/2005 05:09:00 pm  
Blogger Mohamed said...

Also, did you see how your replica is so straight-forward. I think that's cool.

5/07/2005 05:10:00 pm  
Blogger haal said...

yeah, she is very actually. 'send him a message. get done with this business. no need to go in circles.'I had another post dedicated to her but I deleted it and wrote the results insead.

5/07/2005 05:39:00 pm  
Blogger haal said...

Had he persisted, I would have gone actually. I was on the edge, so a little push would do.

So, I like this replica concept. Somethng like imaginary friend.

But seriously, I too think she is cool. Decent in her replies.

5/07/2005 05:43:00 pm  
Blogger MoonLightShadow said...

'Typical Women'.. Ohh, Thank God, it's good to know that it's not only me who act in such a way.

5/07/2005 08:57:00 pm  
Anonymous Haal said...

Thank god, it is not only me then who acts this way. Moonlightshadow kaman is acting the same way.


5/07/2005 09:25:00 pm  
Blogger Mohamed said...

I know I started this, but I wouldn't go as far as calling you a replica actually. There are some differences ofcourse. You're just amazingly connected and similar.

I hate this imaginary friend concept. You two are too spiritual.

5/08/2005 02:10:00 am  
Anonymous Haal said...

I am just exagerating. I find Mae really straight-forwad, decent and serious, of course from the tiny bit we communicated. I am just enjoying that someone says we are connected as a character. That's it. Imaginary friend is just a joke! Don't worry.

Btw, she does give good advice. Perceptive and ALSO playful. not easy!

Enjoy your friend

5/08/2005 09:04:00 am  

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