WISH

...i would say how much i miss this presence in my life and situation. But I can't.

...i would say how many times i space out with my thinking in many situation and know that it would be different had this presence been here. But it is high expectation.

...i would have a home to go back to, feel supported and secured in the midst of any day-to-day encounters... knowing I have someone with him i shed off all my masks and knows me well without explaining. But proves impossible.

...i would play and giggle. dream and plan. progress and move steadily. according to god's plan and orders. soul level. supported by this presence. But it is hard.

...we would talk and talk. discuss and discuss. learn and unlearn. teach and receive. smile in awe. in appreciation. of one another's opinion and sharing. But is never attained.

...we would share share share. listen listen listen. understand and empathize. contain and hug to rest and include. silently affirm and invite to a safe shore to cry. rest. stay silently. for ages? lifetime. bored? never. Ah..... priceless.

...we would together mirror one another. form a plan to move out of this world while enjoying it. prepare for the next while living here. building extensions and solid bridges. spacious for the two of us and for everyone special to us ..... A dream