30 Sep 2005

LOTS OF CHANGES YET....

everything stays the same.

I came back from somewhere only to find many changes on the blogsphere. From bloggers moving out, to another going to stand at new dimension; from a new bride having an abnormal nervous system activity to finding the best medicine in his arms; from donkey sink saw to rose babbling; from rubbing mint to rubbing aganist her worn self; from the wise changing his heart to me trying to overcome a tensed night aftermath; from liberating Sania while playing squash to liberating himself from a dense void; from struggling with time to wanting to be recognized through her days; from having God on her 'mind' to attempting to having a job on her mind; from Bergo's shoes selling protocols to our zionist cousin's protocols; from gharbeiya lana at kefaya to the same old bullshit.

What else is new? I guess nothing.

8 Comments:

Blogger LouLou said...

What stays the same haal?Nothing. With every passing moment you're older & even if you don't feel it you're different. And everything around you is older & different.

When you're happy you want it to last . You want every moment repeated. So you feel time passing too quickly. And you feel how repetition is never perfect or complete.

When you're not happy you tell yourself everything is the same & nothing changes but that's an illusion. If things aren't changing for the better they're changing for the worse. If you're bored for 2 days then you're much worse off than if you're bored for one day - counting the accumulation of boredom or listlessness or stress or unhappiness & counting the time wasted from your life.

Even healthwise - as am finding out - stress & nerves & fear & exhaustion have a cumulative effect. So even though I tell myself am always worried so it's always the same it's not really is it?

Nothing is ever the same & nothing is yours forever. Time, youth, beauty, health, friends, loved ones etc....

Sorry to be depressing but this has been on my mind a lot lately. Usually am a restless, easily bored person. Change is what I do best.Before am done with the page am reading it's half-turned & my mind is on the next one. Before I've taken in one place am thinking where to go next.

Not wanting change or wanting repetition is a new experience for me. It really changes your perspective on things.

10/01/2005 09:49:00 am  
Blogger LouLou said...

Btw haal,

You really like links don't you?:)

10/01/2005 02:50:00 pm  
Blogger haal said...

'If things aren't changing for the better they're changing for the worse.'
Why so?

'Change is what I do best.Before am done with the page am reading it's half-turned & my mind is on the next one. Before I've taken in one place am thinking where to go next.'

Do you consider that fear of attachment to the moment or missing on another?! Do you feel you miss just enjoying the 'being' of that moment with what you might see as 'the same'.

10/02/2005 01:11:00 am  
Blogger ألِف said...

حمدالله على السلامة
:)

10/02/2005 03:11:00 am  
Blogger LouLou said...

"Why so?"

Because time is limited. It's your capital. If it's not well-invested (growing) then it's being depleted. If you're not improving then you're deteriorating, running out of steam, getting tired, getting bored, getting old. There's no such thing as the same.

Have always had this heightened awareness of time passing, everything moving, nothing still. You can see it in the introduction of my blog. This is why I can't sit still. Or sleep properly. Afraid of being left behind.

"Do you consider that fear of attachment to the moment or missing on another?! "

There is curiosity or hope or a crazy kind of optimism - always believing that what I haven't seen yet is somehow better/newer/of more value than what I've already seen.

But mainly fear of getting too attached to a moment I know cannot last(like now).

Imagine reading the best page yet. It's so rich that it completely grips you. You can't put it down. (Is that because it's better than the previous pages or because for once I gave it its time & attention & didn't just skim through?Who knows?)But the thing is sooner or later it's going to finish no?It can't last forever. And when it's finished you can try to reread it but it won't give you the same pleasure of discovery you had the first time.

10/02/2005 06:08:00 am  
Blogger haal said...

'always believing that what I haven't seen yet is somehow better/newer/of more value than what I've already seen.'

but do you think by doing that you are not enjoying either this moment or that moment. My feeling is that within the SAME moment there are more different moments. so even when it appears as STILL, SAME, it is actually taking its time to unfold new realities for you, only if you give it the time and dont wish to run after a new moment. In other words, skimming the outside moment makes you want to flip to the other newer moment, while staying in the same moment, can take you to more pleasures, onlyif (see everything has rules) gave it time and stayed with it.

I think at the end it is personal choice!

'But the thing is sooner or later it's going to finish no?'
It lasts forever but it takes different forms in you, in the surroundings, in others...etc. The effect is endless.

10/02/2005 01:16:00 pm  
Blogger haal said...

Take for instance this post by Sally:
http://egyptiansally.blogspot.com/2005/09/word-verification.html, the same word verification yet different worlds and impacts.

10/02/2005 01:18:00 pm  
Blogger LouLou said...

"In other words, skimming the outside moment makes you want to flip to the other newer moment, while staying in the same moment, can take you to more pleasures, onlyif (see everything has rules) gave it time and stayed with it."

Right. The moments when I stopped are the most memorable. They're the ones that attach me & stay with me.

But it really takes a lot to stop me. Don't stop on my own. I have to be caught:)

Probably am missing a lot like you said.

10/03/2005 06:10:00 pm  

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