From within

I really can not take it. I am Bored. Angry. Annoyed. I still have not changed my mind about how I want it to change. I seem to not being able to do the switch back. Drifting. And I'm actually seeking for more drifting. I seem to not wanting it ti work. Not interested. Not in the kin. Not in the chef.

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