A Message from within

A tree. A bird. A river. A bird needs a tree? A tree is ok having a bird? But The tree can not fly, and the Bird can not just sit in the tree. What the tree wants? A river! Water not river though. Water carves it's way through anything. Aim is to find a path. Smooth and determined. If stuck, it will create a path. Captured or controlled, will lose its meaning. Contain itself into a stagnant and poisonous swamp. Will dry out. Will lose its meaning. Will lose the life force created within. Will be a place for death. Bacteria. Dead body. You name it. Will defy its own meaning for existence. Water flows. Just flows. Moves and in its movement is life. To it and to whatever its path cross. Does not stop, yet nourishs everything it face. Reveals something new. Disturbs at times. Heals at others. All the contradictions. All the meanings and effects. A symbol of life. Move, yet, in its movement is home to itself. A visitor. A traveller. A strange. Yet a familiar stranger to everything it re...

I do not like to be: Misunderstood Judged as a changing, unstable character Jealous My actions and reaction judged and assessed Under continus survelliance Justify and explain myself Talk about what I feel or how someone should do. Reveal my expectation Disappoint and not meet the expectation i put on myself towards the other or the other's expectation in me Feel imprisoned, either emotionally or physically or reaction wise Vaguness and ambiguity Mistrust and have my suspicions triggered. I am detective by nature. Know what's happening but prefer others to tell me Feel unappreciated or criticized internally Silent criticizim. Hiding what you feel or what you think of things or what you think of me I want to know everything, every thought, however, i dont have to do the same Feel things are unshared, but again, I dont have to share everything. I do not do this intentionally, just I dont feel like doing so Dont like to be predictable. All my reactions and actions known. Yet, I wa...