A Message from within

... the same mistake over and over again. I do. I never learn. I throw myself into the same situation. I do. Have to feel totally uncomfortable and totally out of place. I do. All for what? I have no idea. I keep promising myself I will never do that again. They are just not my style. Totally off my head. Not their attitude, way of life, words, social class, thinking. Nothing. As if I come from somewhere else. Different galaxy. He is weird. Even more weird than before. Totally off. 'I like your eyeglasses', she will tell him. He will answer, 'well, they are RL my dear'. I crack. I just laugh. Not sure why but it is so akward of an answer. He is annoying. All the time talks about money, money, money, plans to change this or get that. Run run run all the time. I keep commenting in a sarcastic tone if he ever managed to sit and enjoy what he has been running around doing. Oh Oh, and a roman freaken balcony to drink tea in. I asked, ' so any tea drunk there?' I need

3.5 women. Alone. 3 TVs opened. 2 laptops. 2 phone. All these devices functioning concurrently and full speed Fully concurrent. Fully fully concurrent. No communication. Zero. For how many hours? 4 hours so far and the count still going. I am sitting in the same room. Listening to S.H.I.T. on volume 14. Dolby sound. When the most vulgar song comes, it happens she likes it. Volume increases to 20. Inagurating the song with a couple of boob shaking. And back again to volume 16. Not 14. Conclusion. I lose twice. Once when the most vulgar shitiest song come. Second when the volume does not return to the very loud 14, but slowly mounts 2 levels at a time. How i feel? I feel like an idiot? I am so stoned that I cant even complain or show the slightest gesture of annoyance. I am just shocked. Really. I am so surrendering. Feel my head is dancing and shaking as if placed in the middle of her 36C boobs! Imagine a 36C boob hitting you 2 sided. Here comes the right 36C... OUPS... and here comes t

Lime disease. Ruby. Pyramids. Charlotte. Nokia. Shubra. Alex. Ayooooo. Deer meat. Pasta with vodka sauce. Expensive silverwear. Cheap napkins. Bad table manners. Huge house. Electronic gate. Palace like. Big house. Small space. Furniture. Stairs. Up. Down. Claude Monet. Monaliza. Egypt. Family. All tilted. All all picture tilted. Crystal vase. Golden plates. Crystal and golden chandelier. Mosaic glass cheap lamp. Jaquzzi. Golden tapes. Golden boarders. Huge golden candles. Emperor constantine. Electronic bathroom. Did not know how to flush. Closed the seat. Prayed no one would notice.3 days passed. My pee still there. Now I knew how to flush. Fancy clothes. Fancy watch. Fancy car. Staying all day in her PJ Expensive lotions. Channel Mademosielle. 5 bathrooms. No shower all day. Pampered girl. George the monkey all day. Spitting on me. In her underwear all day. Fake life.