PAST MIDNIGHT SHE SAYS

Never fully asleep without you by my side. Always alert. Longing to connect with you. My love, just when I heard your messages I was dreaming that you are hugging me and holding me so close to your heart. Just dreaming of that made me smile and feel your love. Can this level of embracement be ever matched?

You slipped into me so silently and became my salvation from all my wounds. You filled me up with love that I never imagined possible to recieve or give. You are just right for me.

I love you.

[This post was originally posted on December, 6 2005: 3 a.m. Now, after alomst 2 years, I am numb.]

Comments

Rain said…
You are just right for me.

Sometimes you have too much feelings that can't be expressed by eloquent words, but funny thing that simple words can do the job.

Even the word "Love" isn't enough sometiems.
12/06/2005 06:44:00 pm
MoonLightShadow said…
"You filled me up with love that I never imagined possible to recieve or give."

That's very sweet.
12/06/2005 08:49:00 pm
Alina said…
This post of yours about the depth of your feelings just make me think more of what I have, of how happy I am and of what a privilege this actually is. Reminds me to never take love and the feeling you are sharing it with the right person for granted.
12/07/2005 08:04:00 pm
haal said…
'Never take love and the feeling you are sharing it with the right person for granted.'

Really. You think so? I thought you will say the opposite. Depends what you mean by 'granted'. Do you mean it will end one day?
12/08/2005 09:07:00 am
Alina said…
I mean if you have given such a great gift, you should never think it will always be there, regardless of what you do. Yes, you should always think you are worth it, but always think of this "Be careful with my heart/You might break it/Don't take my love for granted/Things might change". You have to grant everything the value it deservs, not disprespect or under rate it.
12/08/2005 09:48:00 am
Rain said…
Kayla, I agree with u .
12/08/2005 07:51:00 pm
haal said…
Re reading these 2 posts after almost a month I dont even know who wrote which! Really. I guess sometimes we push our own envelope to become more of ourselves. I am glad I documented that. I guess I can never write this again unless I really feel that.
12/31/2005 10:47:00 am
MoonLightShadow said…
:))

That's why I love documenting my thoughts, feelings and ideas, on a blog, on a paper, whatever the method.

Re-reading what I write sometimes gives me that feeling of "Is it really me who wrote that?!"

However, I love going through my old written stuff, I love memories!

Happy New Year Haal :)
1/06/2006 12:12:00 am
Puppy said…
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1/22/2006 05:52:00 pm
Anonymous said…
This is such a good post, i dont even remember when i felt the same, it was AGES AGO, feelings seem so pure and true.

I enjoy reading your blog. Its sad that i alsmost finished reading it:((

Lisa Simpson.
3/11/2008 09:24:00 pm
Queen O'Danile said…
I love this post and LOVE your blog...going to link to you! Dont stop writing--ever!
3/14/2008 07:48:00 pm
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